December 13th -25th, 2025

 

 December 13th, 2025

 [12:13 am]

Day 6 of me finding out about the conspiracy

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I'm getting fucking tired of my sister's "motivation" bullshit, it ain't even funny.

So, she asked for some help on an assignment earlier today, and it was a final that was due at 11:59pm today (a few minutes ago), and what the assignment was, is that you had to review a movie with some fuckass terminology and shit, and my ass thought that it's be a simple video to work on, right?

Apperantly not. 

While we were gathering clips for the damn thing she was being so fucking picky about the clips she wanted to use, but the clips she was asking for, most of them I couldn't find on YouTube or google, and she was describing them so fucking poorly too, but kept insisting that she was explaining them right and that I was misinterpreting what she was saying. 

Then came the voice-over. Motherfucker was slurring her speech so bad that it made me question if she was having a stroke and how she even got into a speech and debate class like a year ago. HELL, this was literally the worst it's ever been since fucking forever, and then she got pissed cause we had to do MULTIPLE TAKES only to come out with some of the worst audio and dialogue quality known to man, but we just had to say "fuck it" and leave it like that because it was the best we COULD do because she was bitching about awful she sounded (and who's fault was that?), WHICH WAS WHY WE HAD TO DO MULTIPLE TAKES IN THE FIRST FUCKING PLACE!!!!

After ALL that,  it finally came down to the editing. I decided to add subtitles because the audio was so shit that nobody could hear what she was saying, but apparently, she thought I was taking my sweet ass time, because she asked me to delete it all, so I do, and say "fuck it, fine, but don't blame me of nobody can understand what you're saying." And while I was adding the clips, she kept nagging about the placement of the clips being remotely off (even though the editing program I was using was extremely limited, and she KNEW that), so I just completely give up and let her finish the damn thing herself since all she was gonna do is whine and complain about shit I had no control over.

So I go and hide in the bathroom and scroll on fucking tiktok for a bit, and then this assholes calls me over and when I come in, her project looks like shit, and she has this damn look on her face like she completely gave up on the project. So she asks me to send it to her in the state that it is, I do, and she then gets pissy at me because I was sending it "the wrong way" somehow. 

So I go to complain about what just happened with my dad, my sister overhears it, and gets pissy at both of us for getting frustrated with her damn antics. Guess she couldn't handle being called out on her bullshit.  

And the fucked up part? ALL of this stress could've easily been avoided earlier if she just worked on it earlier instead of slacking off by roleplaying on CharacterAI and messaging her fucking friends on Discord the whole time while excusing her laziness as "lack of motivation 🥺", and then only coming to me for help THE NIGHT the assignment is due, giving us basically no time to work on it.I literally used to get YELLED at for pulling that shit, but because she's a "stressed out 🥺" college student with a 4.0+ GPA, they let her get away with it. (I'm not even sure how she even got good grades at all considering she's no better than me when it comes to due dates and all that, like seriously, SHE SHOULD'VE KNOWN BETTER THAN THIS!!)

And what's worse? This isn't the only time she's been called out on her laziness. Because she does the same shit every-time she fucking gets asked to do the dishes or some shit like that. Then complains when the dishes are literally overflowing, covered in maggots, and left untouched to the point literal DUST covers everything. 

Same shit with her room, she doesn't even sleep in her room anymore  and just sleeps on the couch because she "prefers sleeping in the living room 🥺" (in reality she's just disgusted that her room's a fucking mess, but doesn't want to admit it), yet she won't let me have her PERFECTLY FINE bed-frame to replace the shitty one I have, and she won't even explain why. In-fact she only started sleeping in her room a few days ago just to make sure I don't have that bed frame, it's pathetic. But she let me keep the desk that's literally falling apart as we know it!

Just generally my sister is fucking awful. Outside of her laziness, she constantly asks me to spend time with her or her fuckass friends when I'm tired as fuck and don't want to leave the house, she makes fun of me for mental health struggles that she KNOWS how hard they are to deal with, she also makes fun of my sexual preferences that SHE asked about, drinks only half a mini can of dr pepper but never lets ME have any when I need one, and she's always trying to guilt trip me into downloading these dumbass mental health apps that are just wastes of time at best and literal SCAMS at worst, saying that they'd "help" me when they clearly don't even help HER with her motivation bullshit, and she creates these "routines" that she ends up NEVER doing because they take up way too much time and resources to do.

She was even the one that forced me into applying for this bell ringing job a few months ago and then convinced my parents to threaten to kick me out if I didn't get that job, she's basically just a prettier lesbo college student version of me, only her behavior is worse than mine and she somehow gets away with it every time.

If that doesn't scream "heavily involved with the conspiracy", I don't know WHAT does. 

Actually, now that I think about it, I never got to name the conspiracy I'm trapped in, because if it's affecting my life THIS much, shouldn't there be a name for it?

Maybe I could call it the "Luca's mental suffering project" (LMSP) or some shit like that? 

No that's just weird as hell...

What about "Operation Suffer"?

Nah, too lame.. 

Whatever, I'll just come up with something later. I'd make a poll, but it's not like anyone even looks at this site anymore, so why bother?

Anyway, I decided to try this one dating sim after giving up on trying to find things similar to my taste, and even though I only got one ending so far, it was so good that I decided to draw Tristan (one of the suitors) and post that to 4chan! >w< 

he may not be a sub-5 incel like i'd pefer, but he's at last got some of the other qualities I'd like in a man, like being around 30ish years old and being a nerd that kinda looks like Sutemi Okada from Yandere Simulator. 

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December 25th, 2025

 [9:25 pm]

Day 18 of me finding out about the conspiracy

I legit forgot to write in this thing god dammit

Okay, so Some updates and shit: 

The good news is that the bellringing season's over, and I got about $300 in my bank account, plus about 1k coming in soon! :D 

The  bad news is my mon's gonna make me get another job soon (hopefully this is one of those things that she doesn't go through with, cause I canNOT do that shit again, that was just awful)

Honestly, what DOES a girl like me do with over a thousand dollars? My parents don't make me pay rent, so that's out of the question. Maybe I could go to the mall or do online shopping? idfk, i'll figure it out eventually

Anyway, I decided to give myself a pretty cool emo haircut, cause I was getting sick of my old hairstyle.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Actually, idk if this counts as a wolf cut or an emo cut, maybe a pixie-mullet kinda situation?????? I have no idea, all I did was just take a boxcutter and slice the shit out of my hair until it looked good, didn't even think about what I was wanting to do with it lol

Still looks great on me tho, just hate how the long end on the other side of my face looks wonky (you can't see that in the pic, but I'll try to find a way to fix it somehow when I need to touch up my hair again)

Also, good news!!! I found an alternative to SpaceHey! :D 

It's called "friendproject", and it's basically spacehey if it were actually usable, with more customization options too! :D 

If anyone's interested in adding me, here's my link! 

https://www.friendproject.net/367049

(Ok, I know it's kinda stupid to promote a social on your fucking diary of all places, but still super hyped that I can do the stuff I used to do on spacehey :D Let's just pray to god i don't get banned on there too) 

I might end up archiving this blog if needed, only using it as a backup and shit, but yeah :P still super cool!