October 8th, 2025

 

[10:54 am]

So, last night my dad promised to take me to go volunteer with him today while he drops off some doors he stained to his last clients n shit, but because the weather got bad earlier today, we didn't end up going, and he just took me to McDonald's to make up for it. 

Obviously, I'm grateful for the food (I love McDonald's), but I'm staring to feel bad that I'm spending so much money on things when my dad's literally struggling to make end's meet, and from what I heard and what he told me, I think he's getting sick of the client's demands. 

They're expecting him to make the doors all "perfect and natural looking", and my dad's worried that they won't think the doors are good enough and won't pay him for all the effort and materials he put into this project because of ONE part of the wood that don't look right (that I didn't even notice until my dad pointed it out), and he's just saying "fuck it, we're running out of time, let's just lacquer these doors and get it over with already". Doesn't help that his ex boss still thinks my dad's working for him, meaning that my dad's struggling to file for unemployment, so if he loses these clients and he doesn't get paid for his efforts, we're gonna end up in a lower economical class by the end of the year, and I'm worried. 

Part of me is wanting to get a job to help my dad out with his financial situation, but I don't have a lot of experience and the job market's a complete mess right now, and there's no places near me that'll take paid internships (at least I don't think so), and besides, who in their right mind would wanna hire a mentally ill retard like me when I can barely even get up in the mornings and doesn't leave the house often? 

And I sure damn ain't attractive enough to start an Only Fans (another sub5 struggle), so basically I don't have any options to make any money, which means unless my dad somehow gets paid for his efforts or my sister or get a job soon, we're cooked. 

Outside of that though, I've just been bored out of my mind, but I'll update you guys if anything happens today.

 [1:55 pm]

I am so fucking sick of these damn LARPers popping up on my damn feed, I'm just about to fucking delete tiktok atp. 

"Oh, femcels aren't real because they reject every man in their dms" NO WE DON'T YOU FUCKING MOID. 

I fucking hate when those dudes post that shit because they're only focusing on the 80% of "femcels" who are actually just popular foids pretending to be one of us because it's niche, like BITCH WHAT ABOUT THE ACTUAL FEMALE INCELS WHO YOU NEVER EVEN GIVE A CHANCE TO?? The ones who have it just as bad as the male incels do, the sub5 ones that can't even afford to looksmaxx because female celebrities have made it so damn expensive?

Yes, it's true that the majority of incels on the internet are men, I'm not denying that at all, but it still doesn't matter what you got in your pants, because at the end of the day, no matter how hard we try to find someone to love us back, we will get rejected in favor of the Cheating Chads and the Slutty Stacey's who make OUR lives miserable simply because they have the privilege of having a partner and want to exploit that to hell.

But NO! just because I have a vagina instead of a dick, suddenly I'm automatically LARPing and my experience is invalid, even if I only ever had one partner in my life simply because I got lucky, only to  still get replaced by some Stacey who's probably gonna take advantage of him and leave him for a Chad when she gets the chance.. (seriously, I'm genuinely worried because he's saying that they're happy together, and I wanna believe him because he genuinely loves her and shit, but I know she's up to something, I just can't prove it...)

As for the women? I hate them. 

They wanna pick on me all the time and make MY life a living hell by ruining every opportunity for me to find a partner. and then telling me that men are the reason my life is horrible. 

Well guess what? fuck that. 

If I have to hear one more foid blame men for her problems again I'm gonna fucking lose my shit. They wanna talk about how moids blame women for all the world's problems, but get upset when you tell them that blaming men for all the world's problems is just as bad, if not worse. You're still a sexist asshole even if the tables turned! 

Actually, just feminism as a whole is stupid as hell, especially in 2025. All it is anymore is starting gender wars for no reason. 

Sure, it may have helped in the 1920s or whatever, but I'm so sick of them acting like we're still living in that decade anymore. Women have almost the exact same rights as men now, and are on the same level as them too, why are they complaining? 

Oh wait! because this was never about equality, it was about being superior to men. They don't to be held to the same standards as men, they want higher. 

But god forbid I even say that, right? Because I can smell the feminists coming her to call me a fascist for saying the truth from a mile away. 

Honestly, just in general I'm pissed off, but the good news: my Halloween costume's coming in! :D I'm going as Towelie from South Park this year, he's funny as hell and I love him :3 

I'll update with part of it when it arrives.