October 9th, 2025

 

[9:32 pm]

Dude, I just had the weirdest fucking tweak out of my entire life. 

 So, I'm talking with my friend about some trauma we had with the cops and shit while I was working on Nozomi's backstory (which is getting closer to completion btw, just gotta do one or two more important events and I'll be done) and while I was doing that, I overheard some police sirens pass by my house, and at first I thought nothing of it cause that's normal where I live, right? 

Several minutes later, I heard what i think are more sirens, and i begin to get worried, so I go outside to check, but I find nothing. 

So I go back inside and try to ignore it. 

But then I hear what i think are even more sirens, plus the sound of shouting, firetrucks and even music for some damn reason (???), so I go out there again, still nothing. 

It was a this point where I began to panic, because I was worried that something was happening IN MY NEIGHBORHOOD,  and it also didn't help that earlier today, my mom had to call the cops on this  dumbass woman who was standing in the middle of the street while her child nearly got killed crossing the road, and I saw my mom talk to the cops and shit and I nearly had a heart attack from that.

Something I think I never really opened up about before is how whenever I'm stressed in any way, i get these really bad headaches that make it hard to focus (fucked me up real bad in school), and that just made me tweak out even more and think the cops were after my ass (after my ex friend group called the cops on me when i cut them off a couple months ago, I am NOT taking chances)

But i try to stay calm and ignore it but holy shit I was terrified. Thankfully my friend was comforting me and shit (I love him so much, he's so sweet), so i at least didn't have to panic by myself lmao.

A few minutes later, i go back outside one more time just to double check and make sure I wasn't gonna get swatted or something, only to fucking realize what I've been hearing the whole time was some damn event at this high school near my house. 

 So I go back inside, take some Tylenol. relieved that I'm not going to jail, but god damn it's fucking 8pm for crying out loud, and people are tying to sleep and shit, the hell y'all doing over there??

So I probably either got some schizophrenia type shit or this hikikomori shit's making me go insane (and yes, I do know what it means, don't throw LARPing accusations at me please <3)

But yeah, outside of that, nothing interesting happened today, i think my dad lacquered the doors and is delivering them either tomorrow or next week, and my sister told me she's also gonna have me go volunteering with her next week (she's got fall break next week, but idk if she's gonna go through with it or not, cause my whole family says they're gonna have me do shit a lot, but never have me do it, so :p) 

But good news: The shoes and dress for my Towelie costume came in! And I love em so much :3 (I'm getting the dress tailored by my older sister, and I'm also planning to stop by spirit Halloween with my dad when he drops off the doors so that i can try to find a good wig I can style for the costume n shit, I'm excited as hell)

Ooh man, I'm tired as shit right now lmao. I think I'll probably doomscrool for a few more minutes and head back to bed, cause that took a LOT of energy out of me.

Goodnight everyone!